Ad-libbing

I figured I'd do something different today. So I took the exercises I mentioned a few days ago while talking about Pilates, look back over the past few posts if you're interested, tried to do a few yoga-ish exercises on my own with no pictures or anything, and did a couple other exercises that seemed to fit the mold.

The result: an actually decent workout, not overly difficult, but enough to get my blood flowing and wear my muscles out decently.

To be perfectly honest, I'm kind of floundering right now. I don't know why. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I missed my first deadline for 230, and it looks like I'll miss this one too. I think that I'm motivated, I mean I know that I want to lose weight and hit my goals and everything, but its like, I dont really know how to explain it. Maybe I put too much pressure on myself with the deadlines, maybe that isn't a good way to go about it. All I know is that its fucking frustrating as hell when it seems like I'm doing well, then I gain half a pound, then another half, then next I know, I'm a month and a half behind, and I STILL havent got to 230 lbs. I think I really need to figure out a way to eat healthy while being poor, living with fat people, and working a job that makes it difficult to eat very healthy.

What I really need is to find a new and better job, but right now I don't know if I'll be able to find one that I'll make more than I do now. And since I can't even accomplish my own damn goals, I'm certainly not ready to try to get a job as a trainer yet. I dont really know what to do. Anyone got any advice? I think I could use some right now.


Oh, I also feel like I need to say, RIP Ted Kennedy. The man spent the better part of 40 years trying to get unviversal health care, hopefully they can do it now in his honor.